When I got the email from the lovely Amanda from Cooker and a Looker to be part of the ‘Why I Write’ blog hop, I have to admit to feeling all squirmy inside, partly because who doesn’t like to know someone they admire & consider a friend is thinking of them, & partly because I always get nervous about these kinds of posts because I struggle to find words! I will do my best however, so here goes.
One recipe & one post at a time pretty much covers it. I would love to write here that I am a few steps ahead & super organised with recipes & posts, but well, no. There are lots of ideas floating around in my head that I am keen to get up, but I don’t really have a plan. I am finishing a recipe post that involves some seriously mouth wateringly good Lamb Cutlets, so stay tuned for that one! Also, working on my food & general photography is a big thing for me at the moment, as I love it, but am very hit & miss with getting the ‘great shot’, when on the manual setting!
I suppose the other big thing I am working on is me. I have written recently about my health & other issues impacting on who I am & how I manage the day-to-day. I am focused on overhauling my mind & body, all of which takes time, & a whole of physical & emotional energy, of which I am sorely lacking. To overcome this, because it shits me to tears & I am so sick of myself, it means working with my doctor, my dietitian & my family to bust this cycle of illness I keep circling into. It takes small steps, melt downs, insight, set backs, anxiety attacks, breakthroughs & mostly a willingness to be kind & patient with myself (not my strong suit). As I write this & reflect a little, I know I am getting there, but it is also the road less travelled for me. What it also means is there will be more recipes posts that are, [cue grumpy groan & pout], gluten free, lactose & sugar free. Think wholefood & healthy, with the occasional treat thrown in just to keep me sane!
Oh & also, it seems I have signed myself up for another 4 years (at least) of servitude to a University so that I can complete my Bachelor of Education (Early Childhood). I have no idea how I am going to fit that in, but I am I am excited to undertake it & move towards a career change I think will be beneficial for myself & my family.
Hmmm … I am not sure it does really. There is a well used formula for food bloggers that I have simply followed on with – that being a recipe with little life stories (pinches of life) included. I certainly don’t claim to have a ‘style’ of writing, just whatever I can extract, sometimes painfully, from my jumbled brain at the time.
The most unique part of my writing is that it is me. My thoughts, my ideas, my recipes (albeit often inspired by those who have already paved that path), my family life, my voice. That’s the difference I see & I hope others can relate to.
When I was younger, I wrote about everything. I had a pile of personal journals & fictional stories strewn all over the bottom of my wardrobe. As I was an incredibly shy & introverted child, reading & writing were how I expressed myself & I was prolific. Regretfully, in a fit of rage & self-loathing, while still in my angst ridden teenage years, I burned them, all of them. And then I stopped writing. And then I stopped being creative. And then I let the practicalities of life get in the way.
It was not until I stepped away from the concrete world of career & work that I had so solidly built around myself & became immersed in the play-dough life that is being home with my children, that I finally felt that old desire to express myself, to explore & be creative, to let down the walls & be part of the story, to write. Being an observer to & part of my childrens’ developing story has reignited that need in me. While I think the purpose of my writing has changed, the satisfaction & genuine release I feel from the process has not & I cannot tell you how glad I am for that!(image source)
I write to be more honest, more open, more engaged, more truthful, to embrace rather than fear being vulnerable & most importantly to live more wholeheartedly. My children have taught me this, so now I write for them & for me. Soppy, sentimental & maybe just a little bit OTT – yes, but the more I write, the more I understand that so am I!
I don’t so much have a process as a craving. There will be something growing in our little veggie gardens or I will spot some new season’s produce & my mind (& stomach) start churning with ideas for tastes, flavours & combinations that I can bring together to make a tasty recipe. From there it might be a bit of searching, experimenting, taste testing until it ‘works’ for me & then I make it again for the blog & take photos as I go. Other times, it will be a tried & true family favourite recipe I can whip up with my eyes closed, it is just about remembering to take the photos. Often this is done while the kids are under my feet, or racing around the house bugging each other. It is not a pretty process at all & can involve a lot of starting & stopping to attend to ‘family stuff’, hastily thrown together final presentation, just to get it done & snapping photos from all manner of angles, in the hope that I can get a decent shot to use in the post. Chaotic? Definitely. Frustrating? Often. Fun? Absolutely – I do get to eat what I make after all!
The non-recipe posts are a little trickier for me, as I am not a trained writer, nor would I ever claim to be naturally creative. These posts are often laboured over for long periods of time, written, deleted & re-written countless times, or in some cases scraped completely. I think because these posts are sometimes a little heavy on the emotional side, I find them hard to put into words & even harder to press publish on. Fear & shame have been long time constant companions of mine, passengers who shadow my every thought & action. Sometimes I win, many times they win. One day I hope to rid myself of both – another reason why I write.(image source)
Ok, way more than enough from me! Thanks again to Amanda for including me in this blog hop – I am ever grateful for the support!
It is with great pleasure I pass on the ‘Why I Write’ blog hop baton to some very special people, each of whom have blogs very different to each other’s, all with voices very unique & beautiful.
Alison from Talking Frankly has a brilliant mind, is incredibly engaged in & passionate about the world around her. I was fortunate enough to meet her at last year’s Problogger Event while I was wandering like a little lost lamb amid the glamour of night time event. You know when you meet someone & just know that you are meant to be friends? That.
Bec writes about plumbing, family & her other passion, fashion over at The Plumbette. Another chance meeting at Problogger, Bec is the epitome of kindness & warmth. Her blog is a true reflection of who she is & it is a celebration of all things good about people, family & of course plumbing!
Lauren from Create, Bake, Make is a fellow foodie & sweet tooth, whose recipes always leave me drooling & hungry. I was very moved by her family’s story & admire her strength & courage. Though we have not met ‘in-real-life’, I get the feeling the conversation would be easy & the catering divine!
Tell me, is there something you did as a teenager you would want to take back? What does writing mean to you?
Cook! Eat! Enjoy!